You know what is amazing. Being honest. It really is. If you have a heavy heart I suggest you seek out the person or thing causing it and be honest about it. It is always okay to feel the way you feel. No one will ever hate you for being honest, they might not like your answer but if you explain yourself clearly they can only admire the strength it takes to be really honest. REALLY. People! let us all stop "protecting" other people with white lies and misplaced jealousy. Protect eachother by telling the truth. That way no one can expect anything that you cannot give.
ps. It is the saddest day in kelpie and loftie world. so sad.