Sunday, May 3, 2009

nice girls finish last.

I am a little unslept but Hobes likes to get up at 9 am and stand on my face until I wake up with her and play. Oh boho.

I've been having the saddest dreams. It is making my sleep unrestful. What a day I had yesterday, I cried for most of the afternoon and then had the most liberating conversation with my friend Cassie. We just talked about girls, and guys and the way things are. She told me that it was a testament to what a good person I am that no matter what I still do not want to watch him hang with the ugh crowd and do the ugh things. She says it would be more normal for me to wish him to rot in hell. I could never. Not my style. Karma will win. Not today, maybe not in 10 years but I am capable of love and I think that makes me the winner. It is sad to stand here and watch you throw everything away and alientate every single person in your life who ever cared about you.

This got my thinking last night about how nice girls finish last. This is so unfair. It really does not make sense to me. But maybe it is the same reason I am not attracted to nice boys. Maybe we are all nice only when we want to be. Here is what i refuse to give up believing.

I believe I am irreplaceable.
I believe that each and every single one of my dreams will come true.
I believe that I deserve more.
I believe that honesty is the best policy.
I believe that hard work and dedication are the keys to success.
I believe that one day I will look back on this and laugh.
I believe that a tittie pop and a cup of tea can solve almost anything.
I believe that musicals and books make for the best stories.
I believe that the best kind of love comes from doggies and mommies.
I believe that I am talented and unstoppable.
I believe that I am a wonderful and loyal friend.
I believe that I choose to only see the good in people and sometimes that can be a flaw.
I believe that I am worth 40 zillion dollars.
I believe that there are a million pretty blonde girls but only one Keltie Colleen.
I believe that a high left kick can book me any dance job.
I believe that sewing, knitting, and crafting make time better.
I believe in the power of a good soundtrack and a good glass of wine.
I believe that all the wonderful things coming to me right now are the karma I deserve.
I believe that trust is the most important thing in life.
I believe that nicole richie braids can save any bad haircut.
I believe that people can see through the lies of our idols.
I believe that there are good idols out there if you look past the US weekly first.
I believe in true love.
I believe in me, my strength and my future.

what do you believe in?