This is my bestie Spagatti. It is 3:27 am I just got home from a really brutal night of shooting and I feel all alone in life and in my convictions. I wish Spagatti was here to make me a cup of tea and talk this through with me. He always has the best advice. I will say this. Maybe to some I come off like I put myself on a pedestal. I do not think I am better or worse than the next guy, but let me admit that I think that my show, and my life and special- if to no one else but to me then fine. I will not now or ever be okay with people cutting down my work. The lessons are the same no matter what walk of life you come from. Maybe some people think I had it easy. Well, I most certainly did not. When I was poor and getting my butt kicked on the E train coming home from gigs at 4 am and waking up at 8 am to stand at some convention all day to hand out flyers for my 200 bucks a day, that is how I hustled. Maybe some girls do other things, and I am not looking down at them, but Peepshow, is not that. There is a fine, fine line between making a point and insulting me.
I am so happy and excited to be getting the heck out of Las Vegas for a week. I need a break from this town. I will be so happy when I get to see New York City again and all my best girlfriends, who love me, and all my crazy convictions.
"There's a fine, fine line"
There's a fine, fine line
between a lover, and a friend.
There's a fine, fine line
between reality, and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top
if it was worth the uphill climb.
There's a fine, fine line
between love,
and a waste of time
There's a fine, fine line
between a fairy tale, and a lie.
And there's a fine, fine line
between "you're wonderful" and "goodbye".
I guess if someone doesn't love you back
it isn't such a crime
But there's a fine, fine line
between love,
and a waste of your time
And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...
There's a fine, fine line
between together,
and not.
And there's a fine, fine line
between what you wanted,
and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want
while you're still in your prime.
There's a fine, fine line
between love,
and a waste of time.
-Avenue Q
