what happens when you ask the universe for everything you have ever wanted and then you get it and you realize that it isn't what you wanted after all? There is no return to sender on this life. There is no, if you don't like it in 30 days- just bring it back for a full refund. There is magical time machine that take you back to before you met so that all the feelings, and emotions and rules of relationships stay nicely intact.
Summer was right, relationships are messy. Christina was right, inviting someone into your life is work. My mom was right, you sound exhausted, you can't be everything to everyone all the time.
be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.