"Things just break sometimes. Maybe we should blame that third person we became, that personality we shared together. Maybe it's their fault because you're a good person and I think I'm a good person too. We just weren't made for this."
- From pleasefindthis.blogspot.com/Photography by Bryan Hainer
Today was so amazing. I helped to raise over 100,000 for Music Education in Nevada schools! I am so proud. Today was of course, one of the greatest inspirations to dance, Michael Jacksons Bday + the city of Las Vegas + the performers from many shows on the strip came together and pulled off a SOLD OUT show at the Pearl Theatre at the Palms. It was something else- the energy was sick + our number from PEEPSHOW was super badass. We danced to PYT + had 4 girls who were the PYT's and then four hiphop girls, we kinda played it as a West Side Story Sharks vs. Jets thing. It was awesome. My other favorite pieces were the 8 year old who plays Simba in Lion King singing, the gospel choir doing "Man in the Mirror" (I cried!) and this rad Las Vegas Band called the Higher and their cover of "Give in to me". It was really badass and they got a crazy standing O from the crowd. Very cool.
I am happy and inspired. My last 3 days in Vegas are all jam packed with shows, parties and packing! I never thought I would say this but I am actually going to miss this crazy city. I am never ever planning on being out here again for any extended period of time + I am just so happy that I got to hang here for the past few months. Sort out alot of my heart, spend nights building what I think is a pretty kickass website, dancewear line and read some really great books. I have missed NYC so much but I almost feel like I needed to spend all this time away from my city dealing with all my unfinished business so that when I get back this week I am hungry, focused and excited.
We were talking in between numbers tonight about how everything happens for a reason. People always say that, and I hate it. I like to fight the universe all the time. I will kick and scream to make things happen. Sometimes it is important to just sit back and let the tide take you where you need to be. I was planning on staying in Vegas right up until I left for ROX tour and instead took a leap of faith, decided to take 2 weeks off and just bum around NYC, on the slight chance that I might book something for the VMAS, or that I would meet someone who owns a yacht on the street corner and they would wisk me away to Greece for 2 weeks. Lucky me! One of those things happened and now I get to work with one of my favorites Taylor Swift and also spend the night with one of my besties (and most kickass Makeup artists ever Sarah Appleby) who is making Cobra Starship look very pretty for MTV. What a small small little world it is. Also talked to my second favorite director of all time Mr. Furgeson and get to give him a huge hug too! It is going to be so funnnnn!I hope you all will follow along as I am guest Tweeting and video blogging for the rolling stone of dance- DANCE SPIRIT MAGAZINE all week long!
I heard that Travis Wall is doing something for the VMAS also. Mission Meet Travis Wall. Isn't he AMAZING. Best new Choreographer. Wish I was him. Want to pick his brain and be his best friend. I want to dance with him and do something to these guys singing this. So brilliant.
"Kelts-congrats on the Vmas. Thanks for 4 first dates, 3 am phone calls and all your four-eyed hotness."
Someone found out where I work, somehow found the theatre and somehow managed to get these all the way from NYC to my station in my dressing room.
I am going to tell you a story about trust. Once upon a time (5 years ago) I met a super amazing man in NYC. This guy had a girlfriend and our group of friends all hung out all the time. I made it very clear that if said man didn't have said girlfriend that I wanted to go out. I made that VERY CLEAR. He made it very clear that he had a wonderful girlfriend and would never do anything to hurt her. Years later tables had turned and this guy did everything he could to woo me, when I HAD a boyfriend. He sent me opening night flowers, flowers of my birthday, and supported me in everything I did. The timing was just so wrong. I was caught up with someone else. I made it very clear that I would never do anything to ever hurt my boyfriend and that I would never cheat.
I have some serious trust issues. I think that if I am ever going to be able to trust anyone it might be this fellow. Maybe sometimes the universe tries to tell us things over and over again and we are simply not listening. Maybe if we just open our eyes then the master plan will slap us in the face and say "WAKE UP! I have good things for you!" Maybe I am just a hopeless romantic. Maybe... but I certainly am flattered.
They say when one door closes another one opens. It doesn't mean that the closed doors hurt less, it just means that we all have to just keep moving forward in order to overcome the adversity that life throws at our hearts and our lives. I refuse to give up on my dream of having it all at the same time.
Dress rehearsal for the MJ tribute at the Palms! Very exciting!
Last night I went and saw the indie flick "(500) days of summer". I loved this movie so much. I adored the part of the movie when Tom is talking about all the things he loves about Summer. "i love her smile, I love the way she laughs, I love the heart shaped birthmark on her chest" and then at the end of the story he is saying " i hate her smile, I hate her stupid laugh, I hate the cockroach shaped blob on her chest". I think we have all been Tom's and Summers. Tom, believer of true love, magic and hope. Summer, running away, doesn't want a commitment, wants to keep it light. I think what is funny is that we think as humans we can change people. As if we can love someone into loving us back. Tom is my dreamguy mostly because I think at one point, for a very long time, I was Tom. I spent years being amazing in hopes that at some point amazing would be enough to save other people hearts. I exhausted myself for love, but it never seemed like work, it seemed exactly like it was for Tom, like the best thing ever and means to have a song and dance montage in the morning. What happened next of course is that, I turned into a Summer. If you get hurt enough you just don't even have the energy to give an honest try to anyone. Summer didn't believe in Love. Summer kept everyone at arms length so that no one could really get close to her. Summer kept it really light.
At the end of the movie, Tom is sitting by himself, more successful than ever, looking cute as a button in his suit, still having everything remind him of Summer. You feel so bad for him because Summer has moved on and is getting married to someone else and Tom is still so gutted over all of it. When they speak Summer says that the reason she is okay being serious with her new guy is because "She is sure of all the things she never was with Tom". How gutting. I have been there. It is a terrible thing to hear.
But I think, as sad as I was for Tom, and myself, I was really happy. We all deserve someone who is sure. We deserve to be ready and accepting of Love. We all deserve a Tom who adores us and is our perfect dream boat of a guy. I have to believe that when I meet my match that there won't be any Summers in the picture, it will be just two Tom's (except, well you know).
So I am going to focus on the things I can control and be like Tom and work instead on creating my dream life. All I need is a giant chalkboard as a wall in my bedroom! Starting here! So excited to have my good friend Stacey Tookey rocking my line from Sugar and Bruno on "So You Think You Can Dance Canada" last night. She is rocking the Peace.Love.Dance. heathered Tee and it is available here. http://sugarandbruno.com/pages/keltie-colleen-series
Tell me something and I will never ask another question.
Why is it whenever I go out of my way to be a big person, I always end up feeling incredibly small? I should wish for broken hearts, broken dreams and ten times the hurt ever caused to me, and yet I can only find care, concern and well wishes in my heart. I am one of the smartest stupid girls that have ever kicked bal-changed through life.
Packing. Packing. Packing. Brunette. Reborn as a gypsy. Someone told me that I am incredibly incredible. I don't feel that way, but I am choosing to believe them today.
Reasons I love this performance! This chick does it all. Costume Change. The greatest F.U song ever. Rain. Looks hot in a FLAT shoe (yea tall girls!) This was epic and even more epic is going to be this years MTV Video Music Awards because that is right I WILL BE SHARING THE STAGE WITH TAYLOR AND DANCING FOR HER!!!!
I am so excited to work with Taylor. I am also excited to work again with the amazing choreographer Danielle Flora. Danielle has been the calling card to my great career. I got my break with her dancing on the VMAS in 2006, and then she hired me for Saturday Night Live, Comedy Central, Ben Stiller, a bunch of music videos and a whole wack of other stuff. She has some of the best energy I have ever worked with.
This is going to be my fourth year at the Video Music Awards. I can honestly say the two years I attended wearing a pretty dress and as arm candy killed my heart. All I wanted was to be dancing. It was hard to sit an be a spectator when inside me heart I am 100% performer! I have been thinking about making your own destiny. Attending the vmas on someone elses coattails was never very fun. I was never a very good sidekick. I have leaned lately that if u want anything, to be anything, to own anything to create anything it has to be your own. I was there the last 2 years but it had nothing to do with me and therefore I felt like a little tagalong. I'm not meant to put on a pretty dress and be arm candy. I want so much for myself. Nothing feels better than something you achieve on your own.
There are many girls sitting around, I see alot of them in Vegas, waiting for a man and his career, his money and his cool life to sweep them off their feet. Why? When we can concentrate on creating all those things on our own. I have a cool life, a cool career and lots of money...remind me why I need a man?
I was talking with Nicole about how cool our lives as dancers are because we never have to endure the downfall of being a has-been. How many different artists have a worked with that have faded into music oblivion? Many. How many dancers? Not as many. The dancers get to shift and get to keep working the best events with whoever is hot at the moment. Besides the blisters, harsh competition and sore muscles it is sort of a win win situation for me.
I cannot wait to be back on the stage at Radio City Music Hall. How strange the events since '06 have been. To me the VMAS are the pinnacle dance job. We didn't get alot of American tv growing up in Canada but we did get the VMAS. Every year I watched the epic dance numbers by Paula, Madonna, j.Lo, Britney, and I dreamed of the day that I would "make it" and be up there too. I think in my heart I was waiting for something like this to come to me again so that I knew that my first VMA's was not a fluke and that I could prove to myself, and everyone around that, I have what it takes to continue to be successful, even on my own.
Sometimes people are mean and they say I get alot of things because of my social life. I assure you. This one was all me. This one had nothing to do with twitter followers, myspace fan sights, or how many kids wrote in. This one was all me beating out the other 300 girls at the audition. It is nice to FEEL that. It is refreshing to stand on my own two feet and make it.
